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Month
no matter how ‘mature’ u think u are when ur under 18….like u will have a fkn revelation in ur 20s about how naive and different you were………….even if ur like the most experienced teenager it doesnt matter……………its bizarre to me that Anyone in their early 20s could ever be attracted to someone younger than them…those few years r packed full of the most formative shit in establishing ur personality and identity and its fkn gross that anyone could see someone in that vulnerable process and think yeah this is my equal despite me being at a completely different stage of life than you. like what the fuck. its always guys who feel so inadequate so are seeking 2 be idolised by someone younger who doesnt have enough experience to know just how pathetic that person is
and especially cos when ur in highschool/just fresh out of there ur still in that ‘adults have authority over me’ childlike state of mind that has been drilled into you and u havent had a chance 2 dismantle that thru experiences such as uni or tafe or jobz (or just simply losing ur status as a highschool student) which allows u to feel like ur own person and an adult in society etccc
can we ever truly separate our feelings about our mothers’ sadness from our feelings about our own childhood sadness, watching her? our own sadness as women who watch our loved ones marry men like our fathers? our own sadness if we were stuck in our mothers’ lives?
escapes for when you feel anxious
- exploring a flowery town with cute villagers
- drinking a milkshake in an empty diner at 3am
- real life that feels dreamlike
- cute sunflower field dates
- in love with the universe
- softest love songs
- living inside an 80s tv show
- drinking tea on a cozy raining morning
- you’re an angsty teen in a coming-of-age film
- summer road trip in the west coast
- vacation in san francisco
- living in an old French film
- stargazing and contemplating the meaning of life
- late night drives in a 90’s movie
- watching a pink sunset over the beach with your best friend
- going to the beach in a camper van in 1960′s california
- collecting whimsical music-boxes and taking pictures of clouds in paris
- falling asleep on the moon
- city lights at midnight
- remembering someone else’s memories like they’re your own
- wandering the avenues of vintage new york city
- being the guardian of a snowy forest
- living in a cinematic painting
- feeling like you’re half-dreaming in faded sunlight in the 60s countryside
- riding a bike a beautiful city as leaves drift down around you
- exploring an art museum
- eating fruit in a small italian seaside town
2017: dumb bitch
2018: sad bitch
2019: bad bitch
U can tell that skincare culture is makeup culture disguised bc not a single syllable of it is directed at men, the crustiest people on this earth
the fucked up thing is, when 12 yr old girls with perfect child skin but maybe a puberty zit or two see those commercials telling them that even slightly flawed skin is a problem to be aggressively fixed and start scrubbing the shit out of their face with high pH drugstore cleansers and astringent toners, they destroy their skins natural moisture barrier and make their skin more permeable to bacteria which can actually CAUSE acne, when creates an endless cycle of spending where they spend the rest of their lives desperately trying to fix the problems that the products caused in the first place
We tried to tell yall Drake is a pedophile when we found out he was texting lil Millie Bobby Brown and bought out that restaurant for the newly 18 year old girl, but yall like his (wack) music so much yall didn’t wanna hear it.
They not tryna listen until he has an “official victim” even then they may not listen for 25 yrs
its really comforting to know that all the times i was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the whole time i had my self in the future and present who had survived those things looking back with love and tenderness and wishing desperately to offer comfort…i am my own guardian angel and i can use that knowledge when im struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in her heart
sir that is my emotional support male celebrity that i direct all of my male attraction towards bc he is a highly idealized man that is safe to lust after because he cannot hurt me!!!!!!!
my new thing has been just… acting on my ideas. like i thought maybe my desk would look better on a different part of my room so i like. moved it? just like that! i ripped an old anatomy book and stuck the diagrams up on my wall like some kind of old timey victorian doctor. i wanted a starbucks and i walked one and a half miles back and forth in a floridian storm and goddamn it was a good coffee. life is too short babey if you think of something just do it. nike
This was weirdly motivating
It’s so fucked up that women are so universally dismissed and hated in society that nearly every single woman goes through a phase (if not a lifetime) of thinking she isn’t like other women purely because she has rational thoughts, hobbies, feelings, and needs.
a gentle reminder that you did well this year. you met new people, learned new things and felt new feelings. you did so many things that made you scared. you picked yourself up off the floor after feeling completely defeated or heartbroken. there were some really tough nights but you survived them all. you made people happy just by existing. you accepted many goodbyes but the serendipitous meetings made up for them. it was your own hard work that paid off but you always downplay it or compare yourself to others. that’s not fair on yourself. you’ve come so far from the first day of this year. you have more wisdom and strength now. yes, other people seem more “successful” but does that even matter? please don’t think so lowly of yourself to only think about your failures. 2018 was your year of growth. I hope you take a moment to be kind to yourself, and believe that 2019 will be even better.
